The 2020 Pandemic Exposed My Weaknesses, Defenses, Strengths, and Potential

Not unlike most of the world, 2020 threw me into a tailspin and exposed a shadow side I was unaware of. My last post was a tribute to turning 50, where the future was my to possess. Little did I know four weeks later, everyone's world would be turned upside down. And I would see just how emotionally unhealthy I really was.
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A Letter to My 8-Year-Old Self

You'll spend a lot of your life feeling like you don't fit in. Most of the time, you'll believe it's because you're not enough, and then you'll swing to you're just too much. Somewhere along the way, you'll lose yourself, but you'll discover her again. You will actually fall in love with her, and fitting in won't seem to be that big of a deal. But it will suck that the revelation comes so much later in life.

Six Weapons For Spiritual Strongholds

For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Ephesians 6:12 I recently had to make…

Ministry: Standards VS Legalism

Standards, they are everywhere. In society, at work, in personal relationships, and in ministry. But in ministry standards can be easily misconstrued as legalism. It is that fear of legalism and religiousness which has had me wrestling over…

New Adventures in 2012

My 2012 is already starting out with a new adventure! Today I am headed to the Brazilian Consulate in San Francisco for a visa! Yes, that's right, I'm goin' to Brazil!!! I've traveled all over Europe, but this is definitely something new! Everything…

Top 12 God Lessons of 2011

This past year I've been in the school of the Holy Spirit. No, not the school of signs and wonders, but the school of conviction and correction! I've gone from the mountain tops to the desert valleys. I've heard the unmistakable voice of the…

Jesus Doesn't Trust You...

Jesus Doesn't Trust You... Reading that is like nails down a chalkboard to me! What do you mean He doesn't trust me! I mean I want to be trusted... Everyone wants to be trusted. Heck, most of us live our lives proving we are trustworthy to…

The Story of Two Births: Joshua VS Yeshua

Fourteen years ago today the story of my son's life began. If the story of his birth were told it would go something like this: Joshua was born into a free and powerful nation, a Christian heritage, and to a caucasian American family. His…

Christmas Confession #3: Not A Christmas Card In Sight

How many of you check your mailbox daily? I bet a good majority of you have community mail boxes and you're lucky to check your mail monthly! We pay our bills online, and we communicate via email. We send out holiday and birthday wishes via…

How Can There Be Sorrow & Suffering During the Holidays

Something about the holidays makes suffering and sorrow seem more of an injustice than at other times. Maybe it's the whole Peace on Earth thing... Throughout this week I've been thinking a lot about Mary. About the joy she had and the sorrow…

Christmas Confession #2: I'm Not Buying Gifts For EVERYONE!

Christmas shopping stresses me out! I love to shop, really I do! However, from the time Black Friday kicks off to the day after Christmas I have this shopping anxiety! I feel this urgency to hurry up and go buy everything before it's all gone! Maybe…

Christmas Confession #1: I Didn't Make It All From Scratch

We used to have a Christmas Eve party every year. We were military and most of our friends didn't have family in the area. So we'd all gather at our house. The kids would track Santa on the computer, and every family would bring something…