I Was Never Alone

“Mom, are you still awake?” Those were the softly spoken words released from the my bedroom doorframe. Of course I would say yes. These are the nights a mom lives for. It’s that moment you’re called up from obscurity and allowed into the secret life of your budding young adult. These intimate doors are fleeting and hidden under the darkest part of the hour. Nevertheless, in that snapshot of a moment, time is irrelevant.

She cautiously walked to my bedside, trying not to trip over the shoes and sweater I had dumped near the chair an hour earlier. Patting down the comforter, so not to sit on my leg, she whispers, “God felt what I felt.”

My ears perked up.

She continued, “All those times I cried alone, and I lay in my room angry, He felt that.”

Refusing to open my mouth for fear I would say something that would defile this hollowed space, I just leaned in not to miss one syllable of what was being said.

“When I was sad, He was sad. When I was angry, He was angry. When I felt rejected, He felt rejected. And, Mom, when I cried, He cried with me. He is in me, and my emotions are connected to His emotions. Everything I have ever felt good or bad God has felt those, too.”

And then she said it…

“I was never alone.”

There is something so tender, no it’s sacred, when God opens heaven and we realize just how near to us He really is.

It brings something so distant and intangible very close and even touchable – spirit to spirit. It removes the lie that we are as invisible to Him as He is to us. It makes us known to Him and He known to us.

It’s easy to feel alone in this world. It’s easy to forget that Jesus weeps when we weep. It’s easy to believe God doesn’t care, have time, or desire to be involved in our life. It’s easy because we impose our past experiences with others upon a God who is not like us at all.

Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible poverty. ~ Mother Teresa

If you’re going through a tough time, can we pray together? It’s hard to keep going day in and day out when you feel so alone. I may not know your circumstances, but I understand the feelings. More importantly, God understands your feelings and knows your circumstances. He loves you, and above all He has not abandoned you. He is hurt because they hurt you. He is sad because they walked away. He is angry because you’ve been cast aside, and He cried as you’ve cried. Dear friend, God sees you, and you are not alone.

Dear Lord, I pray for my friend. Lord, thank you that you are with her, and she is not alone. I ask you bring her the same revelation you brought my Katie. I pray father that she feels your nearness in the chaos of her daily life. Reveal yourself to her in a way that shows her you are near. Guard her heart as she navigates this difficult time, and protect her mind, and daily bring your truth to override the lies. We pray in Jesus name, amen.

I’m jumping over to Meredith Bernard’s country and linking up with Woman to Woman today!