I am in one of the driest spiritual seasons ever!
Lately, every good intention dies shortly after it’s birth, and I look behind me at a pathetic path of restarts! I keep crying out for the rescue party, but none seem to arrive. Nevertheless, in spite of it all there is a whisper from the Holy Spirit reminding me God is working in me to give me the desire and power to do what pleases Him. (Phil 2:13) Which keeps me going…
During this time blogging has been difficult; it’s not something I’m proud of or even excited to talk about. Dry seasons for Christians are like weight gain for health instructors – neither want to admit it happens, but it does!
I get so frustrated at times. I can feel completely empty, pray for someone, and the Holy Spirit will touch them; however, I sit at my keyboard to write, or be still before Him in my quiet time and get crickets! There seems to be this constant battle of thinking I must be doing something wrong, or I need to be doing something more.
Scripture says, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” (2 Cor.12:9) which reminds me it’s not about me! It’s about what He does through me.
Yet, it wasn’t that long ago blogs were flying off this computer, I was teaching workshops, and authoring a Bible study! His direction and voice were both clear and concise. So, what was I doing different then? Absolutely NOTHING!
I believe something the Lord is showing me as He and I stroll through this desert is that when I see myself spiritually strong, I’m still in equal desperation of needing His grace – in fact my ability-to-grace ratio is literally no different than in the desert.
Perhaps these dryer seasons aren’t really about needing God’s grace more, maybe it’s actually about being more aware of His abundant grace in my life, and looking behind at my path of restarts and seeing a faithful God bending over and helping me back up each and every time.
As much as I am wrestling through this season, when I stop and look beyond what I perceive as a mess, it’s really a very beautiful time where I am more aware than ever before how much God’s grace abounds in my life.
Two Points to Remember:
- Anything we do for Him comes from the desire He’s given us: Phil. 2:13
- His grace works where we cannot: 2 Cor. 12:9
If you are in a dry season and feel you’ve got to DO more to make God move, I encourage you to read about God’s grace in Romans chapters 6 – 8. I’d love to hear your thoughts about what God shows you.
Thank you for sharing you heart this morning. Timing is a funny thing. I just read a response to another blog post that talked about timing in the context of wanting to fix problems. And then I read a post about being in a fog, and trusting it’s not forever.
To me it seems like only yesterday there was a flurry of activity with your speaking engagements and posts, so it’s funny to hear that you feel like you’re in a dry patch. I think you are on to something when you think maybe it’s about seeing grace. It’s always there, always as much as we need. And things are always moving forward even when it feels like we’re at a stand still. Our perspective is often skewed by our selves. We need to trust the process and trust that God is outside of time.
Thanks again. xo
Thanks Cass, I love to read when you write, so thanks for posting! You are so correct when you say “It’s always there, as much as we need.” So wonderful to know God never withholds anything based on what we can and cannot do, but lavishly pours it out even beyond what we think we might need! Please use commentluv so that others can see your amazing blogs! I so enjoy them! hugs!
In the desert I hear His voice calling me to deep water…
It’s interesting that you use the word “deep waters.” As I entered this season an elder’s wife came up to me and said the Lord was calling me into a deeper place… I’m still waiting to dive! However, I am thinking that the revelation of the depth of this season comes on the other side! 🙂